It's starting to sink in

Now that the initial shock has worn off and our happy Easter news is starting to sink in, I'm a little nervous. For several reasons.

1. It is so freakin early! This could just be a chemical and I could start my period at any time.
2. We really don't know what caused my miscarriage last time. I am on progesterone supplements, but what if it was genetic?

If you read my blog and know me in real life, please keep our secret. So far only DH and a few choice friends know the news. We haven't even told our families and probably won't for awhile. For several reasons.

1. It is so freakin early!
2. We really don't know what caused my miscarriage last time.

I only made it to 5w3d last time. I imagine my OB won't even see me until at least 8 or 9 weeks. That is still so long away. I called the RE this morning, but they were closed for Good Friday. He mentioned wanting to do some tests (not sure what) if we got a positive, so I guess I will wait to hear from him on Monday. There's nothing really to do to sustain the pregnancy other than progesterone which I am already doing, so if it isn't going to last, there is nothing I can do about it.

I am extremely paranoid considering what I went through last time, but I have decided that I am going to try to relax and enjoy every minute that I get to be pregnant. Whether that is 1 day, 5 weeks, or an entire 9 months. I hate that a m/c can take so much of the joy out of any pregnancies that may follow. I told DH and he didn't seem very excited. When I told him that his response was, "Well, I got excited last time and ended up even more disappointed." I can certainly understand where he is coming from.

So any prayers from any of you would be greatly appreciated!